ah haven't been keeping up with this on the daily..damn

at the moment, like right this second, i'm afraid of where i'll be in about a year or two.
i'm afraid that i won't be able to make it to who i want to be, to be at this high potential that i can be. 4 years have gone by so fast, i decided to take another year of school to work on and find myself. it's a bummer to see all most friends graduating this year but also rewarding that they have made it and that i will to be up there some day.

each day my mind changes, do i really wanna become a pharmacist? but i really wanna do something with photography..why not combine both?..am i ready?

throughout these years in college, my confidence level have been depleting slowly and been having trouble trying to gain it back or even finding it. i miss just being young and everything would come easy to me, and i was a cocky person ha. i understand college is hard, it's suppose to be, and to be rewarding, but sometimes i can't see that sometimes.

i hate that i compare myself to everyone, when i should really just be working on myself. what i mean by this is that, they are able to balance a lot of things, or have these admirations about life and future, and ask myself..why aren't i like that?

i'm excited for the summer...family of first things on the list..ashley, rayjohn, andrei triple party fest, friends coming down to stay, possibly road trip it to Phillly, work Summer Bridge, hopefully get a lab job, and lastly pharmacy application and PCATS. phew!

well enough talk. i still need to post up my pictures, and i will soon update the flickR